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I like to read comments on articles. I also like to read various articles on the same subject because it gives me a broader detailed perspective on a situation. I don’t like to be manipulated by media. However, I enjoy like crazy reading readers’ comments on controversial subjects. One of the most recent shocking news was the death of Amy Winehouse.

I saw her for the first time on TV with the video “Rehab” and I wasn’t overly impressed, though the music sounded kind of interesting. In my own self-imposed limits, the subject “drugs” isn’t appealing to me. I take pride in my lucid mind (most of the time…), I’m sometimes even too lucid to fall asleep… So, I watched a batty young singer’s video. A singer that wants to get some attention singing about drugs and rehab. Like, “I do drugs, I’m so cool.” Nothing more boring. Then, I forgot about her and the video quickly. After a while, I discovered some mp3s by accident, while I was wandering in one of my numerous online research escapades. It was “You know I’m no good” and “Back to black”. These two songs sounded pleasantly unusual. I downloaded the album and I listened to it like crazy for weeks. Her sultry voice, her combination of jazz and R&B kept me interested long enough to remember her and to include some songs among my favorites. I always follow the destiny of interesting characters that keep surprising me. I started to learn more and more about her in magazines and news, I studied her unusual look, her unusual style, with heavy eyeliner, big bun, and a combination of a bit of androgynous and feminine sexiness at the same time. Compared with popular pretty female singers like Beyonce, Shakira or Christina Aguilera, she was a bit of a man, and, let’s face it, majority likes very sexy, pretty, Barbie-like singers. Moreover, she used to do drugs, drank alcohol, and had numerous fights with her ex-husband; she went on stage drunk, and so on. She was a black sheep in every sense of the word! I remember an interesting discussion with a sexy young College English teacher a couple of years ago about this Amy Winehouse and his comment was like “Nooo, she’s too much, she looks so bad because of drugs, bla bla bla”. He was a bit disappointed because he was smart, good-looking but predictable, an average Joe trying to look classy. I can’t say that I was the biggest fan of Amy Winehouse, but I liked her songs very much, she was highly talented, and she was definitely an interesting edgy appearance among Barbie singers. Am I the only one who sees that?

Sadly, she’s dead at 27 like Kurt Cobain, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, Brian Jones, Jimi Hendrix. I can’t shed a tear because even though I liked her, I wasn’t madly in love like I was with Axl Rose when I was in my early twenties. And now I’m closing the loop here: What really enraging me is the attitude of many anonymous comments after articles. “She is overrated”, “She’s a drug addict, we should blame her not make her a heroine”, “She died. Big deal”, “So many drug addicts die and no one knows about them” bla bla bla A.W. always stoke me as a famous but very complicated and unhappy person, surrounded with a irresponsible family (or ex-family), struggling with the pressure of fame and addiction. Any early death is sad, and it’s not even matter what was cause for us, the unknown people. People feel so important making derogatory comments on the death of a singer that couldn’t manage her unhappy destiny but who won 5 Grammys before 27! The flock, the judgmental flock strikes again… Am I crazy? I feel only compassion for her short unhappy life and regret for a wasted talent. These are the only emotions I feel. It is beyond my understanding how some people can feel disgust or express disapproval for some fans’ sadness…and the saddest part is I can’t do anything about these narrow-minded people. What I feel for them is embarrassment. We should be all forced to learn, along with the alphabet, the basics of genuine compassion and consideration for any being.

Good night, dark angel.

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